JFC Jensen stop!!!
More obscenity. Then again, we knew this was a NSFW blog.
There’s this problem where whenever Dean starts to get more evil and dark
Jensen Ackles just gets 100000 times hotter
and it’s a problem because you know Dean is going bad places
But he’s just so fucking hot
I wanna talk about Ben for a second.
I think nearly everyone in the spn fandom agrees that Ben is Dean’s biological son. The only stumbling block to this is the fact that Lisa…explicitly told Dean Ben is not his son.
And here’s why I think that’s a complete lie.
The first time Dean asks if Ben is his (right after he does the math and realizes Ben could be his son) is approximately five minutes after walking back into Lisa Braeden’s life. Dean had been gone for 8+ years—heck he was just a fling to start, and suddenly he shows up again. Lisa and Ben have their life figured out. They live perfectly well with the family dynamic they have. Lisa doesn’t know Dean. Lisa has no connection to Dean. Imagine if she did tell Dean Ben was his son: child support, visiting arguments, heck maybe even custody battles. Who knows what kind of man Dean is? What sane person would risk uprooting her entire life (along with her son’s) by dropping a bombshell like that on a man she hadn’t seen in almost 9 years?
Second—Lisa tells Dean that Ben is the son of some biker fling she had. She says this with certainty. But honestly, why would she know this? It didn’t sound like this biker guy was involved in her life. Maybe Lisa tracked him down again at some bar a month later and said, “Hey pal, wanna take a ride to the doctor’s office for a paternity test?” This wasn’t a boyfriend, wasn’t a relationship. I have trouble believing she even knew the guy well enough to find him again after the month or so it takes to realize you’re pregnant.
To me, the biker story sounds like a very easy escape from Dean. I mean he’s still this random guy who showed up again in her life, and even though they bond, even though he saves Ben, Lisa now realizes Dean Winchester leads a very, very dangerous life. Dean’s a nomadic, mentally damaged, monster-killer. At this point, it would make even less sense to tether him with the fact that he has a son (even though Lisa obviously cares for him at this point).
Dean vanishes after that. The next time she sees him is when he shows up at her door half-crazed talking about how he’ll bargain for her safety when he sacrifices himself. This is a man who lives in a world of monsters, but Lisa cares enough to try to at least help him. However much Dean eventually tells her about his life, Lisa’s got to know he’s always hiding more. She’s got to know there are insanely powerful things out there that want Dean dead, things Dean has to bargain with his own life to protect her from.
The next time he appears, it’s immediately after Sam dies. Dean is a wreck, but he’s also (possibly) out of the hunter life. So Lisa lets him in, he becomes a father, a husband, but never legally. I doubt Lisa and Dean ever talked once about marriage. Why? Because in the back of her head Lisa knew she needed to constantly be ready to let Dean go if and when his past caught up to him. How do you make that possible? One—you never marry the guy. Two—you never honestly tell him the kid he’s caring for is his son. If Dean knew Ben was biologically his, imagine how much harder it would be for him to pack his bags and vanish when he needed to.
Lo and behold, Sam returns. Dean’s flesh and blood family. And what does Dean do? He takes off with Sam—because it’s dangerous for Ben and Lisa, because his own demons have caught up to them. It’s hard, but Dean manages to leave them. In truth what was he all along but a surrogate dad? Never really a part of the family.
Imagine the kind of shit Dean confided in Lisa after a year together. In the episode where Dean was cursed and people were forced to tell him the truth, Lisa admits she knew from the second Sam returned that it was over between them. Because she knows how messed up Dean is about family. She talks about being close to her sister, but how she’d never, out of desperation, raise her sister from the dead. Being family-family with Dean is a very dangerous game—a messed up game that ends in blood and tears and deals with the devil, and Lisa’s got to be afraid of that.
All of this evidence is ignoring the fact that 1—Ben looks A LOT like Dean. 2—Ben acts like Dean. 3—Ben even likes Dean’s music.
Finally, imagine how hard it would be (especially as time goes on) for Lisa to pull Dean aside one day and tell him “Hey I lied to you. Ben’s actually your son.” She knows Dean would be hurt that she lied, that she has kept very important information from him, that she was clearly trying to distance herself and Ben from him. For the right reasons or not, it would be hard to work up the nerve at any point to tell Dean the truth.
In summary—Lisa had no reason to tell the man, who just walked back into her life, who she knows nothing about, that he’s the father of her child. She has no reason to upset her and Ben’s family dynamic. She then had even less reason after she learned Dean hunts monsters for a living. How would she know with certainty the biker was the father? How easy is it to track down a one-time fling a month later and make him take a paternity test if child support was never an issue? Even after Dean came to live with them, Lisa could not tether Dean to them. No marriage and no biological kid mean the best situation for Dean to be able to take off when he needs to. Being family with Dean Winchester is a terrible risk to take. And if you’re actually flesh and blood, you’ll never get away entirely.
#I also have a personal headcanonthat at some point in that year #Dean took Ben to get a physical #probably for school sports #and he asked the nurse for a paternity test as well #but when it arrived Dean didnt have the nerve to open it #he kept it in the glove compartment of the impala #ignoring it for more than a year #until the day he made Cas wipe Lisa and Ben’s memories #he went out to the car right after that #tore open the letter #and cried alone in the driver seat of the impala until Sam came to get him (via phantomrose96)
I think we found Satan
This is the best post.
"you choose your favourite character because they remind you of yourself"
Lost and found.
I think this might be the moment at which I realized how terrifying, utterly terrifying, Dean is because of the monster he turned into out of THE SHEER POWER OF LOVE.
I mean, he’s motherfucking scary - so motherfucking scary even the monsters are scared.
BECAUSE HE LOVES CAS.
It’s like this beautiful paradox, that love is able to bring out the darkest, most evil, most twisted parts out in him - and he feels completely at ease with them. Completely pure.
do you ever just connect with that one fictional character even though your life is nothing like theirs somehow you just understand them completely and get what they’re going through
Supernatural’ was loosely based on Jack Kerouac’s book “On the Road”. For those of you who don’t know, it’s a road trip novel, mainly autobiographical work, written as a stream of consciousness about Kerouac and his friends criss-crossing the country in 1940s.
Two main characters are named Sal and Dean, and even Kripke admitted he named our Sam and Dean after them. Sal Paradise was Kerouac’s alter ego, and Dean Moriarty was named after his friend, Neal Cassady.
So, let’s talk about Dean Moriarty. He is a beloved character, much admired for his carefree attitude and sense of adventure. A fast-talking womanizer and a con-man with classic good looks and tons of charm, with a love for american cars. Dean races from journey to journey and pulls other people along, always on the move. He grew up with an alcoholic, troubled father for whom he searches on many occasions. His various fixations were drugs, booze, women, and finally the search for his father and constant desire for a family life. In fact, he tried to settle down on many occasions, but his restless spirit always pulled him back on the road.
Sounds familiar? Add monsters and demons, and you’ve got yourself a Dean Winchester.
What most people don’t know is that Dean Moriarty (and subsequently Neal Cassady) is bisexual.
There are two versions of the book. The one that was published in 1950s is a censored version of Kerouac’s original manuscript. Since homosexuality was nothing short of a crime in the 50s America, Dean’s bisexuality was only ever hinted at, and of course remained in the subtext. What we got was a character who was constantly picking up women and even got himself married two times. If you read the book closely though, you can see that his character was also constantly flirting with men, crushing on men, etc. There’s even one male character (Carlo Marx) in the book with whom Dean had a confusing relationship dynamic which was never directly explained, but mostly looked like jealousy over Dean’s constant man-whoring and picking up girls.
The original manuscript of “On the Road” was finally published in 00s, without censorship, but with all the sex, drugs and real names, including the sexual relationship between Dean and Carlo (which were finally named after their real life counterparts, Neal Cassady and Alan Ginsberg). Yeah, Dean and Carlo, I don’t even have to try and make it work. :)
Jokes aside, if you google Cassady’s life, you’ll see that he and Ginsberg had a sexual relationship which lasted on and off for the next twenty years, as he traveled cross-country with both Kerouac and Ginsberg on multiple occasions.
In conclusion, it’s perfectly possible and plausible to have a womanizer, manly character in a story and also have him be attracted to men on occasion. And not only possible for purposes of the story and only in fiction, but also realistic, since the character of Dean Moriarty almost autobiographically follows the life of a real person. In my opinion, it would not be in any way insulting to Dean Winchester’s character to make him ‘suddenly’ attracted to men. Real people like him do exist, and I think it was hinted enough in canon that Dean Winchester isn’t as straight as others would think.
And for final thought, if you doubt that Kripke didn’t have this book in mind anymore after he started filming Supernatural, think again. In the finale of season 5, “Swan Song”, Chuck talks about Impala’s first owner, named Sal Moriarty. Another nod to Jack Kerouac’s classic “On the Road”.
— mekbuda.tumblr.com (SOURCE)
THIS.. THIS THIS THIS THIS THIS.
9.02 Devil May Care vs 9.11 First Born
so get this, Dean actually is pretty damn awesome
also hella scary
I was so turned on during that scene it’s not even funny.
3x10 || 5x22, 7x23, 7x06, 8x04
please deliver dean winchester to my door immediately we will have the most tender vanilla sex on earth i will kiss every one of his freckles and curl up with him afterward whispering in his ear about how beautiful and wonderful he is and we can fix french toast together in the morning and smear each other with powdered sugar and laugh and then have really gentle morning sex in the sunlight on the kitchen floor pelase j ust give him to me i will take care of hiM PleasE
I want to point out that Dean didn’t do his usual “dude. lesbians. hot.” thing. Character development? yes!
damn. Thanks for that tag.
I’ve been thinking a lot about Dean lately (and always). He has the merit of being my favorite character on the entirety of Supernatural, and also, in my view, the most interesting. (Okay, so I’m a bit biased).
I also think that Dean Winchester is perhaps the most important character on Supernatural. No, he doesn’t get the huge myth-arcs like Sam. He doesn’t have special supernatural powers. But he happens to be so completely, perfectly human. And in a show about what it means to be human, that makes him pretty damn important.
So, this is a meditation on Dean’s character, a meta of sorts, but also an ode to the elder Winchester. I want to talk about why I think he’s so important and special as a character, why he so brilliantly and perfectly embodies the concept of humanity…and, as an afterthought, perhaps what Castiel sees and loves in Dean Winchester. That humanity.
I’m going to borrow a quote here from The Vampire Diaries here to make my point. There’s a character on that show named Matt Donovan, a character who, by the fourth season, is pretty much literally the only human character left of the ensemble cast. Everybody else is a vampire or a witch or a hybrid or an Original or god knows what. And then there’s Matt. He’s human, and he wants to stay human. He catches the eye of Rebeka, who is a powerful, immortal, beautiful, almost impossible to kill vampire. And yet, despite her strength and immortality, and powers, she loves Matt. Why? “Because you’re so beautifully, painfully human,” she says. For all her supernatural power and immortality, she lacks something that this weak, mortal creature has. Humanity.
And I think that applies so perfectly to Dean Winchester. He’s so beautifully, painfully human. And in that, he embodies humanity. I don’t mean that in a lofty, ideal, place-him-on-a-pedestal sense. I mean that in a very tangible sense: he’s painfully, tangibly human in a way that encompasses all that means to be.
I’m going to bring in another quote here, from a Muse song: “you’re something beautiful: a contradiction.” That’s what humanity is - a contradiction. That, I believe, is what it means to be human. To be good and at the same time bad, to be strong and weak, beautiful and terrible. Humanity is a versatile contradiction.
And that’s what we see in Dean Winchester. He’s the man who would sacrifice everything to save the people he loves, and yet who has a terrifying darkness in him. Who loves so completely that he would give his life for anyone he cares about, at any moment, and yet who’s also capable of holding a gun to an innocent person and pulling the trigger. He loves with an ability that’s almost superhuman, the strength of his love so great that it is almost a supernatural force in itself, and yet for all that, he is merely human, with no powers, with weaknesses.
He’s unflinchingly loyal, and yet a skeptic almost incapable of faith. He’s been betrayed and broken, and yet he keeps on fighting. He’s depressed, often suicidal, and has a death wish so often - and yet will never let himself be killed, will always fight to survive, fight for the sake of fighting, til his last breath. He doesn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, and yet somehow he knows how to smile and to laugh. He knows how to be at the lowest point, at rock bottom and carry the burden of the world, and yet at the same time feel joy, sing off-key with his brother, and enjoy a burger. He literally carries the weight of the world on his shoulders, and yet he enjoys the simplest of things.He’s a brilliant genius who hides behind the facade of being a mindless, womanizing jock. He’s a geek who loves Star Trek, and yet pretends to be simple and shallow.
But more than that, he voices and represents the greatest ideals of humanity without even thinking about them as such. He has unspeakable strength (30 years of torture, anyone?) and yet believes he’s weak. He doesn’t like lofty philosophy or complex discussions of morality, and yet he functions on an admirable system of morality, one based on the strength of love, on the power of humanity, and on the value of fighting and never giving up. Values that Supernatural itself celebrates and that Dean stands for.
And part of why he’s so appealing and so painfully human is precisely because he’s so unaware of his humanity. Because he embodies the stengths of humanity so candidly, so naturally. There’s just something so grounding, so down-to-earth about him. He’s a tangible figure: he loves burgers and pie and his music and his car. he flirts and likes sex and makes jokes and enjoys the simplest things in life. And yet …there’s that burden of the world on his shoulders. There’s something beautiful, but also beautifully human, about enjoying the simple joys of human life while also standing up for the greatest ideals of humanity. And there’s something even more beautiful about doing it unawares, about being able to be simple and complex, to be the contradiction that he is, without even realizing it. There’s something beautiful about a simple man from Kansas, with no home, no education, no job, no money, no credentials - nothing that carries any kind of value in our civilzation, being such an embodiment of human ideas. He has none of the things that our society would award based on merit, and yet as a human, he can be an ideal precisely through his complexity, his flaws, his ability to be both so infinitely good and infinitely bad.
In a word, then, a word I’ve already mentioned: a contradiction. A beautiful one at that.
And, since I mentioned that I’d bring Castiel into this, I might as well, though the above holds up even without his presence.
I think Castiel loves Dean for his humanity. And, again, I don’t mean that in the lofty, idealized sense. I don’t think Castiel holds Dean up on a pedestal as some sort of perfect being beacuse of his humanity - I think perhaps what Castiel loves is that contradiction itself. Castiel is an angel who’s observed humanity, who’s loved humanity, thought them works of art and fallen for them. He, unlike his brothers and sisters, thought humanity worthy as his father’s creation, and he worshipped them unlike his angel siblings. And I think perhaps he loves Dean best of all because Dean is the perfect embodiment of humanity. Not because he’s perfect, but because he’s complex, capable of love and hate, good and evil. Because he’s a contradiction, because he’s complex and interesting. Because he’s so painfully, beautifull human.
And that’s why I love him too. Because in all his complexity, in all of his quirks, from loving Star Trek to that licking his lips thing he does, in his lethal cold-bloodedness and in his moments of complete love, he is so painfully, beautifully human.