3x10 || 5x22, 7x23, 7x06, 8x04
please deliver dean winchester to my door immediately we will have the most tender vanilla sex on earth i will kiss every one of his freckles and curl up with him afterward whispering in his ear about how beautiful and wonderful he is and we can fix french toast together in the morning and smear each other with powdered sugar and laugh and then have really gentle morning sex in the sunlight on the kitchen floor pelase j ust give him to me i will take care of hiM PleasE
I want to point out that Dean didn’t do his usual “dude. lesbians. hot.” thing. Character development? yes!
damn. Thanks for that tag.
I’ve been thinking a lot about Dean lately (and always). He has the merit of being my favorite character on the entirety of Supernatural, and also, in my view, the most interesting. (Okay, so I’m a bit biased).
I also think that Dean Winchester is perhaps the most important character on Supernatural. No, he doesn’t get the huge myth-arcs like Sam. He doesn’t have special supernatural powers. But he happens to be so completely, perfectly human. And in a show about what it means to be human, that makes him pretty damn important.
So, this is a meditation on Dean’s character, a meta of sorts, but also an ode to the elder Winchester. I want to talk about why I think he’s so important and special as a character, why he so brilliantly and perfectly embodies the concept of humanity…and, as an afterthought, perhaps what Castiel sees and loves in Dean Winchester. That humanity.
I’m going to borrow a quote here from The Vampire Diaries here to make my point. There’s a character on that show named Matt Donovan, a character who, by the fourth season, is pretty much literally the only human character left of the ensemble cast. Everybody else is a vampire or a witch or a hybrid or an Original or god knows what. And then there’s Matt. He’s human, and he wants to stay human. He catches the eye of Rebeka, who is a powerful, immortal, beautiful, almost impossible to kill vampire. And yet, despite her strength and immortality, and powers, she loves Matt. Why? “Because you’re so beautifully, painfully human,” she says. For all her supernatural power and immortality, she lacks something that this weak, mortal creature has. Humanity.
And I think that applies so perfectly to Dean Winchester. He’s so beautifully, painfully human. And in that, he embodies humanity. I don’t mean that in a lofty, ideal, place-him-on-a-pedestal sense. I mean that in a very tangible sense: he’s painfully, tangibly human in a way that encompasses all that means to be.
I’m going to bring in another quote here, from a Muse song: “you’re something beautiful: a contradiction.” That’s what humanity is - a contradiction. That, I believe, is what it means to be human. To be good and at the same time bad, to be strong and weak, beautiful and terrible. Humanity is a versatile contradiction.
And that’s what we see in Dean Winchester. He’s the man who would sacrifice everything to save the people he loves, and yet who has a terrifying darkness in him. Who loves so completely that he would give his life for anyone he cares about, at any moment, and yet who’s also capable of holding a gun to an innocent person and pulling the trigger. He loves with an ability that’s almost superhuman, the strength of his love so great that it is almost a supernatural force in itself, and yet for all that, he is merely human, with no powers, with weaknesses.
He’s unflinchingly loyal, and yet a skeptic almost incapable of faith. He’s been betrayed and broken, and yet he keeps on fighting. He’s depressed, often suicidal, and has a death wish so often - and yet will never let himself be killed, will always fight to survive, fight for the sake of fighting, til his last breath. He doesn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, and yet somehow he knows how to smile and to laugh. He knows how to be at the lowest point, at rock bottom and carry the burden of the world, and yet at the same time feel joy, sing off-key with his brother, and enjoy a burger. He literally carries the weight of the world on his shoulders, and yet he enjoys the simplest of things.He’s a brilliant genius who hides behind the facade of being a mindless, womanizing jock. He’s a geek who loves Star Trek, and yet pretends to be simple and shallow.
But more than that, he voices and represents the greatest ideals of humanity without even thinking about them as such. He has unspeakable strength (30 years of torture, anyone?) and yet believes he’s weak. He doesn’t like lofty philosophy or complex discussions of morality, and yet he functions on an admirable system of morality, one based on the strength of love, on the power of humanity, and on the value of fighting and never giving up. Values that Supernatural itself celebrates and that Dean stands for.
And part of why he’s so appealing and so painfully human is precisely because he’s so unaware of his humanity. Because he embodies the stengths of humanity so candidly, so naturally. There’s just something so grounding, so down-to-earth about him. He’s a tangible figure: he loves burgers and pie and his music and his car. he flirts and likes sex and makes jokes and enjoys the simplest things in life. And yet …there’s that burden of the world on his shoulders. There’s something beautiful, but also beautifully human, about enjoying the simple joys of human life while also standing up for the greatest ideals of humanity. And there’s something even more beautiful about doing it unawares, about being able to be simple and complex, to be the contradiction that he is, without even realizing it. There’s something beautiful about a simple man from Kansas, with no home, no education, no job, no money, no credentials - nothing that carries any kind of value in our civilzation, being such an embodiment of human ideas. He has none of the things that our society would award based on merit, and yet as a human, he can be an ideal precisely through his complexity, his flaws, his ability to be both so infinitely good and infinitely bad.
In a word, then, a word I’ve already mentioned: a contradiction. A beautiful one at that.
And, since I mentioned that I’d bring Castiel into this, I might as well, though the above holds up even without his presence.
I think Castiel loves Dean for his humanity. And, again, I don’t mean that in the lofty, idealized sense. I don’t think Castiel holds Dean up on a pedestal as some sort of perfect being beacuse of his humanity - I think perhaps what Castiel loves is that contradiction itself. Castiel is an angel who’s observed humanity, who’s loved humanity, thought them works of art and fallen for them. He, unlike his brothers and sisters, thought humanity worthy as his father’s creation, and he worshipped them unlike his angel siblings. And I think perhaps he loves Dean best of all because Dean is the perfect embodiment of humanity. Not because he’s perfect, but because he’s complex, capable of love and hate, good and evil. Because he’s a contradiction, because he’s complex and interesting. Because he’s so painfully, beautifull human.
And that’s why I love him too. Because in all his complexity, in all of his quirks, from loving Star Trek to that licking his lips thing he does, in his lethal cold-bloodedness and in his moments of complete love, he is so painfully, beautifully human.
I may or may not have a kink for domme!Abaddon dressing Dean in silky panties and other feminine things.
I have so many feelings about Dean Winchester right now
and by feelings I mean can you imagine having sex with the man? (difficult because in my mind he’s with Castiel but never mind that). Because he puts on this macho facade and all but if he slept with you you know he’d be the sweetest guy ever, but also super experienced from all those years and years of hookups, so beneath all the posturing and winking and pick up lines he’d be so gentle and make sure you were enjoying yourself to and he’d care about you getting off as much as him and he probably knows exactly what to do to make that happen by now because, hey, experience, and he’d probably have zero qualms about doing all those sweet little things to make you feel good like kissing your neck and eating you out (god I hate that phrase, it sounds like he’s having a sandwhich) and if you wanted to be on top he’d totally let you because we know canonically that in the bedroom he doesn’t feel the need to prove his masculinity by getting on top and he’d probably just encourage you to ride the hell out of him and
I’m so sorry, this came out of nowhere and was totally inappropriate
and really glorious
Cookies to the person who finds that actual magazine somewhere and scans it so we can see what kind of porny porn Dean was looking at.
Sam’s face just kills me omg
#not go all geek on this stuff dean?#say the man who made a EMF detector out of a walkman#says the man who obsessively knows the inner workings of his car#says the man who makes more dumb pop-culture jokes than anyone alive#says the man who freakin’ loves LARPing#says the man who read the Odyssey and remembered his history lessons from grade school#says the man who secretly wants to be Captain Kirk#says the man who gets excited over rainbow slinkies#and can hack into a security system with his computer#says the man who still uses cassette tapes#and can quote his favourite movies word for word #but yeah dean #sure#i’m the geek here #supernatural (via)
JENSEN FINALLY GOT TO PLAY POSSESSED!DEAN
I mean, okay it lasted about 2 minutes but STILL. Both Jared and Misha have played about 10 different versions of their character and Dean’s played a demon version of himself once in a dream and that’s like it.
but domme!Abbaddon/sub!Dean though
Because Abaddon is totally a dom and she totally likes her sexy submissive boys on their knees and she likes to give them a taste of her riding crop.
And Dean, well, Dean never does anything he’s told, not completely, so he’d rebel every step of the way and he’s be her sub and he’s enjoy it, but only if he got to mess with her and follow her orders halfway. He doesn’t just want to take orders, he wants to be *made* to take orders.
and Abbaddon should hate it, she really should, this challenge to her authority, but she can’t help admiring Dean in that deep dark soul of hers, and admiring the strength and the willpower she shares with him.
SHe’s still going to make him get on his knees though, no matter what. And that pretty freckled skin of his is going to get a taste of that riding crop.
Dean’s never going to beg, though. She knows that. That’s what she likes best about him.
She has to work hard to get him on his knees, but when he’s there, he’s perfect.
And the thing Dean hates the most is not getting on his knees before her. He hates how much he likes it, and he takes it out on her by attempting to disobey and rebel against every order.
Dean is smart and I like when the show remembers this.